Thursday, December 21, 2006

Michael Scofield- really neat. <3

1:44 AM

the wet weather inspired me
to conclude that
my life, though a drizzle,
has never been a fullblown storm.

it has been comfortably chilly,
which is optimal for my way of life.
it shields me from the absolute positivism
that im incapable of bearing with,
and
it permits my stubbornness and arrogance.
in some way,
my pride helps me
deal because i never want
to fully believe
that i need people.

i quite like the concept of
myself being strong, and unwavering,
neither depended on nor dependant.
it sounds like a good plan to minimize
the problems that could arise from socialising.

but in fact im not,
i am sometimes weak,
and i am too proud to acknowledge this
especially in those times.
i feel like i'd lost a battle with my
better self if i think i need help,
comfort, material things
or the traditional sense of
relationship establishments.

maybe its because i want
too badly to be the great person
that i am not, yet.

yes this life has never been a
storm that rages,
it is cold, but not unfeeling.
it is trying, but not defeating.

these months have been an education,
i feel a lil detached from my
social circle.

maybe ive walked out.
and not planning to move into another.

12:56 AM

Sunday, December 17, 2006

'tis the season to be jolly?
jolly-that's what i want to be.

3:36 PM